How is it you think your life is going one direction and then, WHAM! Off into another direction you go. 3 months ago I thought I would be working from home, homeschooling my son. Here I am, working full time, my son in public school. I am enjoying working again. I am good at what I do. I take pride in helping the people I work with to do better and more. My son is thriving. He is learning so much! He learned the macarena! Different words, obviously. Months of the year. Cutest thing EVER!
I am surrounded by a new family. These people that I have known for years(most of them peripherally) have taken me into their family and enveloped me in their love and support. No questions asked, no repayment expected. God's provision continues to amaze me. Why is that? That's okay, I'd rather not be complacent about his provision.
I am heartened to know that Emily is back on US soil. And I was blessed to spend an hour with Steph and Lulu, who is fabulously generous with her kisses!
I actually feel content. God is great.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Prison Walls
I am sad. I feel as though the big bad world is eating me up. And its my own fault. I am letting it eat me up. Our stuff is strewn everywhere. My car is packed with stuff for the apartment and it would be senseless to unload it only to reload it a week from now. So I can't see out of the back. At least I have blind spot mirrors on the sides.
I started working today. A temp, possible temp to perm position. Everyone seems nice and happy to be working there. I didn't do much. Maybe I'm just used to doing a million things all day. I used a dictaphone! I didn't know those things still existed! I spent 3 hours listening and typing. The day went by slowly. My son was the last child in the after school program when I picked him up. That hurt. And I even left work 10 minutes early to get him. :-( We got home and had an hour and a half before his bed time. Of course, he spent it playing with his friend. I am looking forward to having our own space and the special times we will have there. I envision cozy moments full of love and joy.
I feel as though I've finally broken free from a prison but now I don't know quite what to do.
You know that funny fake snore sound? The snorty breathing in through the nose and wheezy 'shew' back out of the mouth? That is the snore my son is snoring right now.
Emily, you have inspired me to try to start blogging again. If anyone bothers to check it any more! I guess that shouldn't matter anyway.
I started working today. A temp, possible temp to perm position. Everyone seems nice and happy to be working there. I didn't do much. Maybe I'm just used to doing a million things all day. I used a dictaphone! I didn't know those things still existed! I spent 3 hours listening and typing. The day went by slowly. My son was the last child in the after school program when I picked him up. That hurt. And I even left work 10 minutes early to get him. :-( We got home and had an hour and a half before his bed time. Of course, he spent it playing with his friend. I am looking forward to having our own space and the special times we will have there. I envision cozy moments full of love and joy.
I feel as though I've finally broken free from a prison but now I don't know quite what to do.
You know that funny fake snore sound? The snorty breathing in through the nose and wheezy 'shew' back out of the mouth? That is the snore my son is snoring right now.
Emily, you have inspired me to try to start blogging again. If anyone bothers to check it any more! I guess that shouldn't matter anyway.
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