Every month I hope. I wait for the day and hope it will pass with nothing. Am I selfish to want another child when I've already been blessed with one and there are others who can't have even that? All I ever wanted was to have a family- be married and have children. children. not child. I adore my son and wouldn't change him for all the children in the world if that were a choice but I want him to have a family- brother, sister- so that he won't ever be alone. I didn't stop my husband from getting a vasectomy and its probably my biggest regret to date. I hold on to the hope that God can do anything- I mean, if he managed the immaculate conception, surely he can overcome a little snip! I'm currently 5 days late with other symptoms of a pregnancy which are also symptoms of an ovarian cyst.
A ray of light: reaching into the past to ask for forgiveness.
Rory told me this weekend that when he gets 'this big' (about the size of a pear, according to his hand extention) he will no longer have to hold my hand. :-( Please, don't remind me.
No comments:
Post a Comment